Last night while sitting around with some friends having a beer I came to a sort of epiphany. That being that if I say equally negative things about her as she does about me and others doesn't that make me just like her? Doesn't that just make bad karma on me? Well not any more!
From now on I am going to be telling all those in my life that if they don't have anything good or pleasant, or positive to say about anyone or anything then I don't want to hear it! I told this to my youngest daughter (5 yrs.) today and thus far she has grasped it with full understanding and compliance. Now I am not naive enough to think that this will continue with her indefinitely, but the fact that she understood and is doing her best to comply tells me that this is the right way to go. I can only hope that it will be even half as effective when I ask that of my mother! She will no doubt take it as a personal shot but I don't give a fuck. I am determined and committed to feelings of happiness and good will and will not let anyone or anything get in the way of that. I can't live with it being all negative and nasty. It just hurts too damn much.
Friday, June 03, 2005
Thursday, June 02, 2005
That's incredible! Sadly it's not.
She is so pathetic. She was bad mouthing you know who, her un-favourite grand daughter, yet again. It makes me so mad and I think part of it is because I choose to say nothing, sit and listen and then try and carry the conversation elsewhere. That's pretty pathetic in it's own right. It turns my stomach and makes me physically anxious. I feel like I just want to shake her and scream at her.
Fucking bitch! It just blows my mind that she really thinks she is right here. That it's the grand daughter's loss. If that isn't the most rediculous thing I've ever heard. As far as I'm concerned anyone who can and does exercise her from their lives will be far better off for it. I would get her out of my life if I could. But I can't so now I must find a way to deal with her evilness.
I think I'll start by going to a friends tonight to have some beers, hang out and just be normal for a change.
Fucking bitch! It just blows my mind that she really thinks she is right here. That it's the grand daughter's loss. If that isn't the most rediculous thing I've ever heard. As far as I'm concerned anyone who can and does exercise her from their lives will be far better off for it. I would get her out of my life if I could. But I can't so now I must find a way to deal with her evilness.
I think I'll start by going to a friends tonight to have some beers, hang out and just be normal for a change.
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